One of our gorgeous new readers, Beverley, tells us her story about her long term boyfriend first wanting to move in together, but then changing his mind and pulling away. She's wondering if he'll ever commit.
Her Question:
Hi Jane,
I have stumbled across your page by chance but is extremely relevant to where I'm at in my relationship at the moment.
I just read "3 Biggest Warning Signs He'll NEVER Commit" and I'm worried. I have been with my boyfriend for coming up on 3 years now. I am 27 and he is 25. I am a little confused as to where to start with my concerns as there are a number of mitigating factors in what has gotten us to where we are (that being nowhere).
I'll try to give you the short version:
We have the same long term goals but very different short term goals. As such, in three years we have not really achieved anything together; he has bought and sold a number of cars, while I have gone on three extended holidays with girlfriends.
Upon the return of my last traveling venture in the car on the way home from the airport he told me that he wanted to move in together. I was over the moon!
Unfortunately, as the weeks went on and I began wanting to plan and suggest rentals to look at and essentially "get the ball rolling" he became very cold on the whole process.
It later surfaced that his plans had changed and that he now wanted to save and buy a house (he is a builder) rather than "wasting money" renting - He is currently living rent-free in a property owned by his grandparents.
He has since gotten a loan for a $30,000 car.
This broke my heart and I have since expressed this to him. He tells me that of course he wants to live together but I am going to Europe for 4 weeks at the end of September and there is no point looking for anything in the meantime (so he says). He is also waiting on a large payout from his company.
Is he just stalling and making excuses?
After reading your article I should mention that he had a difficult childhood with an abusive and absent father who eventually abandoned him at age 11. He has never seen or heard from him since. Otherwise he has a very close family - His mother met her now husband when my boyfriend was 10 (she had been separated from his father for 3 years).
I know that we are young. But I'm not getting any younger... I do love him very much.
He has a very kind heart. But it's becoming more obvious to me that he is still very immature and possibly may never commit and will always be making excuses. I feel also that his family (his mother especially) enable his childish behavior due to the guilt of the past with his father.
What should I do?
- Beverley
My Response
I hear you, Beverley. But more importantly, I think you hear yourself.
Most of the time you already know your answer in your heart of hearts; it’s here you come to find your confirmation.
It’s this part that tells me you’re onto something: “But it’s becoming more obvious to me that he is still very immature and possibly may never commit and will always be making excuses.”
This is our stirring, our waking up, Beverley.
When we see him, we see our love for him. We see his kind heart. We see all his potential. After all, there’s always so much potential with this type of man.
We see his heart and it keeps us there, it keeps us overlooking what we eventually can’t overlook anymore. It keeps us giving him every benefit of the doubt until we’re left with nothing but doubt.
This is waking up to the reality of what actually is instead of seeing it for what we want it to be.
How can we tell the difference? How can we know he won’t ever change? How do we know what’s real and what isn’t? And what about trust? Where does our hope and trust and belief in love come in?
There are so many unanswered questions. Especially when you’re feeling like you’re not getting any younger and you’re wisely wondering if he’s worth your time.
It’s no wonder you find yourself here, seeing it all so much more clearly when you allow yourself to, and now with the question every one of us who’ve been through this face – what to do with it all?
You’ve tapped into so much of what makes this kind-hearted man with so much potential behave the way he does.
His family history plays such a role here. So does the fact that you can see that potential and the sensitive man behind an exterior that may at times show otherwise. But you see this side of him, the softer, more sensitive side. The side with a heart that shows that potential, the side that gives you reason to believe and hope.
After all, if he didn’t have these qualities, I doubt you’d be with him in the first place. So much to love, and yet so much to lose. Because we can wait weeks, months, years – some of us even wait a lifetime – to see if his potential can be fulfilled.
There’s a reason he can’t commit. It’s not just that he won’t. It’s usually that he can’t.
But to know what you personally should do in your specific situation, you need to understand all the dynamics going on here. You need to understand him. You need to understand you and your response to him.
It’s not just him. It’s what he represents to you. And just as important, it’s what and who you represent to him.
It’s rare that he’s open to seeing this, really seeing the deeper dynamic here, because to do so makes him even more vulnerable than he allows himself to be with you; it takes him deeper to a place he’s not comfortable with going.
So he stays on the surface, in the place that’s comfortable for him.
You might catch a glimpse of his vulnerability when you’re with him in the moment, when you’re intimate with him. But that’s probably as close as you’ll ever get. And after that, it’s back to his comfort zone, back to safety, back to whatever reasons and excuses he has to make him feel safe.
You’re not alone, Beverley. In fact, it’s in response to so many of other women of all ages just like you who’ve asked why, who DESERVE to know why, to put the pieces together, to understand more so, like you, they can make their own decision, that I’ve put together my program Why Men Pull Away.
You can’t know what to do until you know what’s really going on behind the surface for both of you. You can’t know what your next steps need to be until you’ve put the pieces together.
Trust yourself, Beverley. You DO know where to go from here. Your intuition is telling you, nudging you, prompting you where to look, what to see, and what to do about it. Listen to it. Listen to all of it.
Watch. Observe. Pay attention. Look for the consistencies.
And then follow your instincts. There’s a place for you. There’s a place you’ll recognize that feels like coming home. You’ll recognize it when you see it. You know you will. And that’s why you’re here.
I hope this helps.
Love,
Jane
What do you think our gorgeous friend, Beverley, should do in this situation? Share your words of advice and encouragement with all of us below in the comments!
maree says
Hi Jane!wow finally a site that really makes sense..thankyou so much for putting all this loving stuff up for free!
I have broken up with my boyfriend 10months ago well he actually left.
But a month ago he contacted me saying he loves me still and that I am in his heart and we deserve another chance.
He said that he never wanted to leave forever but he couldn't handle.the circumstances..we actually chose for an abortion because of our instable relationship and we were on the edge of breaking up already..I didn't want to bring another child up on my own as I already have an 18 year old from another ex.
It was devaststing decision for bith of us so he walked out straight after and broke up.
Now he wants to try to see if we can work thngs out.
But I can't help thinking of how frustrated sad constantly triggered I was in our relationship.
We are both in therapy sometimes we used to go together.
I have groep therapy every 2 weeks.
I do love him very much and when it's good between us..when we are able to stay out of childhood triggers it is pretty amazing..
I have been doing really well these last 10 months without him though I am.still deeply grieving..I have my own business and a few other jobs and becoming very independant and there is a lot of calmness without him..but I miss him also.deeply..the good things.
So hard to know what is best.
I knw I have bagage from my youth and connecting is vry hard for me..committing as well..so.just as he I can be pretty unsafe and uncommitting..
Sorry for the long mail, I needed to share..
Thankyou and much love,
Maree
Jane says
Welcome, Mareee! And thank you! We all need a place to share - so glad you found the place here. 🙂 Those childhood triggers are so strong - especially in the one place where we go to work through them, our love relationships. We always miss the good things - but it's all things that matter. Listen to your heart, your gut instincts, your inner sense of what's really going on here. You know more than you think you do if you allow yourself to listen - and trust! - that part of you that's been told you don't know. You're so much more than that!
Anne Marie says
Why are there so many men afraid of commitment? I thought I was the only one having the problem. But I see so many woman contacting about the exact issues I am going through. They give a little and when they start to feel they retreat and go to their safe place which doesn't include you. Unless they want to change, there is nothing we can do but walk away even though it is so painful for us.
Squirrel says
I've found these two books very useful in answering this question about men and commitment:
Barbara Ehrenreich, The Hearts of Men: American Dreams and the Flight from Commitment
Steven Carter and Julia Sokol, Men Who Can't Love: How to Recognize a Commitmentphobic Man Before He Breaks Your Heart
Jane says
Thanks for sharing, Squirrel. 🙂
Jane says
"Unless they want to change" - you've hit on something powerful here, Anne Marie. They have to want to. There are ways we can help them want to, there are ways we can inspire them and show them something different than what they've been used to that will make them want to commit this time, but at the end of the day, they still have to want to.
Audrey quinney says
It's very similar to my relationship of 4 years , he promised so much ,but it's all been in vain , I ve just ended it , cos Were all getting older and wiser , my head has been messed with enough , this has made me a emotional wreck , with all the false promises and lies , I think you need to be honest with yourself and yourself worthiness, and move on xxx
Jane says
You've spoken for so many here, Audrey. It's when we're ready to hear our truth that the answers can finally become clear.
Diane says
Beverley,
You are a smart, articulate woman. Decide what you want and go from there.
I agree with Jane, he's not ready to commit, or he can't/won't.
Linda says
He's 25. Enough said. What 25 year old on this planet, in 2016 (not 1954), would be committing their life to another? The guy isn't ready, full stop. So either stay with him for a few more years, and break up, or break up now. Unless he is a huge loser with no options (which does not appear to be the case), this guy has a world full of choices. If you broke up with him now and he misses you, he'll come after you. This is a very straight forward situation. In this life, nothing that is truly meant for you will pass you by. Life always works out as it should. This man is not going to be your husband. And if he was, it would at least 5 years from now.
Linda says
And I'm surprised at Jane's advice. Deep and introspective? What 25 year old man no less, is capable of that? What's all the analysis about? He's a child. Not old enough to make this decision. So you two can date until you break up and then you'll both meet other people. Do you actually think at 27, this is the last man you will ever have a relationship with?
robin says
Beverley, i think the problem of not wanting to commit is not with him alone but with you too. You seem to have a problem with commitment too. so instead of trying to understand why he is running away, why dont you work on yourself and see why you are doing the same. you want commitment yet you are afraid too what you see in him is a mirror of you!