You knew it would be hard getting over him, but you never realized just how hard this was going to be. Whether he ended it, or you, the reality is you didn't want it to end.
All you ever wanted was it to work out, but in the end, you realized it would take more than just you making that happen.
So here you are, trying to accept the reality of what is and move on, but that deep sadness and longing for what could have been lingers on, leaving you wondering if you'll ever get over him.
Getting over a recent (or worse, a not so recent) break up can be one of the most difficult things in life to do, and for good reason.
It makes sense – your life was intertwined with this person and you opened and shared your delicate heart with him, making yourself vulnerable to your worst fear – having that heart crushed and broken into a million little pieces.
And facing the reality of starting over, alone.
While it may feel like the only thing that you can bring yourself to do is continue to hold out hope that someday you'll wake up and find out that it was really just a bad dream, the reality is that the sooner you can bring yourself to move on, the better.
Why? Because if you're still holding out hope that you're going to get back together with your ex, then you will be subconsciously comparing every guy you meet with your ex. While this might not sound like a big deal – I mean, you have to have some rating system for the guys you meet and date, so why not have a "gold standard" to compare to? - the problem is that this gold standard is actually setting the bar impossibly high.
What's really happening.
When you spend your time and energy reminiscing about your past relationship, you're really not remembering your ex himself, but the wonderful feelings that you had when you were with him. And you're also "remembering" the things that you had planned to do with him, and you're experiencing a sense of loss of those future events, because now they will not happen the way you imagined.
The problem is that these feelings are filtered through your memory, and your mind tends to idealize those memories.
And that future? Well, of course it's impossibly perfect because that's what we do best; we envision a future that's perfect, based solely on that idealism and what we know could be possible instead of the reality that was the more likely scenario.
The earlier in the relationship it was, the more optimistic you felt about the relationship and the more you put it up on a pedestal, idealized it and elevated it to almost mythical status. In your mind it was so perfect, so wonderful; he did all the right things, said all the right things, and was exactly what you always wanted, your Mr. Right, your dream guy.
It's just a dream.
But the truth is that he wasn't your dream guy, or it wouldn't have ended. Because your real dream guy would feel the same way about you as you feel about him, and if that was the case you wouldn't have broken up.
Remember that if he really was Mr. Right, he would not have crushed your heart the way he did. I'm not saying that he's a bad guy for doing it; he probably didn't intend to hurt you, it’s just that the relationship wasn't right, at least for him, and that means that he really wasn't your Mr. Right.
Real love with someone who truly is Mr. Right is always reciprocal – with both of you on the same page - and you wouldn't want it any other way. You want to be Mrs. Right as much as he's your Mr. Right.
It's holding you back
It's never easy to let go of a dream, but the bottom line is that pining for your past relationship is what keeps you from making progress in life right now, and it's what's keeping you from moving toward the relationship that you really want; the right relationship for you, a healthy relationship.
If you continue to hold on to the belief that the two of you are going to get back together, then you will not get to the grieving stage, which is such a necessary part of moving forward. You need to realize, right now, that you are not going to get back together, and make it your choice. You need to remember the reasons the two of you are not together – even if you feel like it was your fault – say, you were too clingy, or paranoid, or jealous. Well, there were probably things that made you feel that way, and the truth is that in order to be in a healthy relationship you need a combination of time to work on yourself, and get to the root of why you are feeling these unhealthy feelings, and also you need to be with a guy who will treat you in a way that you don't need to feel those feelings.
Finally breaking free of the chains that holding onto your ex puts you in, separating from your ex allows you to truly explore your true self and allows you to connect to that beautiful woman you truly are without the danger of trying to be something you’re not just to please him.
You can finally release the negative feelings about your ex, and replace those with positive feelings about yourself and your life. If you just stop thinking about him eventually those negative feelings that are eating at you will disappear and you'll be ready to allow new love into your life.
Know that these feelings that you felt with him were yours, and you haven't lost the ability to feel those feelings. He didn't cause you to feel them; you felt them because you have the capacity to feel that kind of love. Which means you can feel it again.
Instead of letting your heart get hardened, use this experience to propel you forward towards an even better relationship. You deserve nothing less than this!
I love this article but what do you do when you truly miss him? What do you do when it's been a few months but you still yearn for the friendship and the romance? What do you do when you're exhausted from being with your friends even though you love their support? What do you do when you go on dates and the guys you see are lack -luster and you get upset because dating SUCKS and you feel that you just need to settle on the next guy you date because you're loosing hope? Do you just the a rebound guy, just to stay busy? How much time does it take ? What do you do when you no longer speak to each other, there's no anger, just acceptance that it's over but it hurts to not have him in your life?
I would like to say ...I'm so lucky that through my search I found your thoughts and vision that really help me go through my difficult situation. ...
I feel completely lost and my mind was frozen with big sadness .
I read you article and feel like you bring to me simple freshwater vision.....
I think all of us who went or go through our broken relationships search for little support and understanding. ...Thank you very much...for your vision...for your deep thought.....
Alena
You're so sweet, Alena. Thank you for these kind words. Love having the honor of bringing you simple freshwater vision. That's always my hope. Grateful you found your way here!
Jane,
I'm eighteen years old. I started dating a guy last summer, and though we were fully aware that we were both engaging ourselves in a long distance relationship, he seemed ready.He gave me the example of how it had worked out for his sister. He's the kind of guy who moves on from girl to girl, if you see what I mean, not the serious type at all. But he claimed that when he met me, his world changed and that all he wanted was me. I gave in, because I wanted to give it a try too. It was my first ever dating experience, as I had never had a boyfriend before him. He seemed happy to be with me. He was gentle, caring, loving towards me, that it was impossible for me to see the person whom my friends described as ''careless, not worth it''. I went away to college, but still managed to see him every now and then. Again, every time he saw me, his face lightened up, I genuiely believed that he loved me. And the promises, oh God! He said he would never leave me, and that I resemble no other girl he had ever met. I started to fall in love with him. It seemed so right at the time. Fast forward a few months later, everything changed. I last saw him in january, and it's been four months since then. He stopped making efforts to contact me and became very distant. I thought a few times of breaking up throughout the relationship, just because I knew deep down in my heart something was not right. But I always chose not to believe so, because I cared about him, and I knew he too cared about me as well. Thus he changed, as I said. I felt like I was a burden to him, that he felt the pressure to call me because I asked him to. He became very cold, not talking to me much, not caring about me anymore. We didn't speak for three days, and I was wondering why he didn't contact me. I didn't want to do so because I was the one making all the effort to keep in touch with him. But in the end, I was the one who called, to put an end to this unhealthy relationship that was keeping me from staying in touch with my family and even shutting out my friends.
I told him that it wasn't working out between us, and he shared my opinion. I asked him if he loved me, he was unable to answer. I wasn't sure how I felt about him either to be honest. He told me that he tought he would be able to handle the distance, but that he couldn't take it anymore. I was convinced that he was interested in other girls, more accessible perhaps, because of the person he is. We decided to end it. We skyped a few hours after, and well, I'm glad I'm not with him anymore. He showed me a different side, the side everyone warned me about. He made fun of me, made it clear that he wanted to move on, and that I was just another girl to him, although he always said that it wasn't the case.
To be honest, I was sad after the fist call when we decided to break up. But what I find strange, is my unexplained joy and relief that I feel towards this outcome, or rather after our skype call. I don't feel sad, I haven't cried. It feels strange not to be with him anymore because we used to talk very single day. But at the same time, it feels right, it really does. I'm more excited and eager for my future and where life takes me. I feel as if my past relationship ''sucked the life out of me'', because I was always worried, it was always my priority. I came to find out that life isn't all about that. I'm still young, I shouldn't be talking about forever with someone. By dating him I was not giving an opportunity to so many other potential matches, far better that him. We weren't on the same page, we didn't see life from the same perspective. I'm glad it's over.
Madison.
Thank you for sharing your story, Madison. How you're seeing this! We're never meant to be in places or with people that "suck the life out of me", Madison. You listened to what you knew in your heart to be true. And now you've discovered what we all eventually come to if we allow ourselves to; that he's not the only fish in the sea and that if you're not on the same page, looking at life from the same perspective, nothing else will matter.
I've been reading so much online about moving on and forgiveness, I liked the comfort this article provided over others. I'm currently in a relationship that isn't officially over, but I know in my heart it must end. It is killing me inside. I met a girl nearly a year ago at an odd job I took to help out a friend and his employer. This girl I met has two young kids, and at the time, was beginning to move on from a bad marriage that she was in. She was an angel and I couldn't believe that someone would disrespect her so badly, lie, cheat, and berate her, all while she took care of the kids mostly on her own. She deserved so much more, and she was gorgeous to boot. I was in love instantly, and she was giving me the green light. It was great for about two months, emotions were swirling and I thought my life was set, and she was helping right along to cultivate those feelings. Soon though, she had a sudden change of heart, and was cold and distant, and insensitive to my own feelings, even going so far as to judge me for being so heartbroken after she ended it. The separation lasted a week only, but when she called back, she didn't know how I fit into her life, but she wanted me there, as a friend for now, all while knowing I was completely in love with her, not understanding why I can't except friendship and still be in love. In many more ways her words were selfish and hurtful, but the relationship plugged along just as it had before the break up, only now I was secretly miserable, after months of debate, we got into an argument (after she now admits to having deep feelings of love for me) and contact was severed briefly. We began to see each other weekly, communication still at a normal to slightly less than pace. After about a week and a half of not seeing each other, she tells me that there is someone else in her life trying to make an effort to be in it, through text messaging, a person she met at a bar a month and a half earlier, when we had the argument. I was devastated, as much as I wanted the relationship to end I didn't want this. It stunned me and i jumped right back into the relationship, head on. I was destroyed mentally and emotionally though. I still made big efforts to show her, as she requested, that I was serious about us. About two weeks later, I feel her pulling back again, and shortly after, over text, she basically ends it, although she says that was not what she was intending, but, in my heart, I feel it was. We continue to see each other, and have sex, but it gives me great anxiety, because I know it's not right. Several times she disrespected me and cut me so deep, that I can't look at her or feel the same about her that I once did. The joy is gone. I'm afraid it's just an addiction, and I can't move on, I am in so much emotional pain that my entire world around me is literally crumbling. I need a solution.
Robert, be good to yourself. You don't need all the anxiety, depression, sadness and pain you're getting from her. This quote below is from a man who posted this in another article. I think he has a pretty good point, just switch the "he" to "she".
"Here's a few why dating a divorced man is a BAD idea:
1. You never really divorce. There's always a lot of their emotions still invested in their ex-wife. They will say it's over but it's not. If they have children then that's a whole other problem.
2. You can struggle with feelings of being "second best" no matter how much he makes you feel special. You don't need to in your mind.
3. They are OFTEN emotionally unavailable because of the divorce and all they invested.
* SECOND AND BEYOND MARRIAGE ALSO HAVE HIGHER RATE OF DIVORCE because HE had too many unresolved issues before even his first marriage and YOU are not the fix "
You can break free, it's hard I know but your own happiness is on the line here. There are so many good women out there (myself, even the commentators on this site) included who don't have children from previous relationships and are in a healthy state of mind and ready to be with a guy like you who treats them.
Hope this helps
*treats them well*
It does help thank you. Every word you said is true, and I already know that I neither need or deserve the pain and depression and anxiety she has brought into my life. It's so hard to let go though because this is now the second person I thought I would build a life with, and through their hurtful and wreckless actions, am having to force myself to let go of something that I accepted as a huge part of my life. I never felt she understood what a huge life choice it was to accept her and her children to be my family. The entire relationship felt like it was completely about her, and I was simply reacting and being dragged along, constantly being hurt. She knew of my past relationship, and how suddenly the party scene, namely alcohol, was responsible for crumbling my first serious relationship. But this girl now, she was all about finding her new self, and it felt as if it was in disregard to any of my feelings or insecurities. She even blatantly ignored my requests at one point, saying that she could not give me that decision to tell her she could or couldn't. I simply was asking her to respect my feelings, she did not. So many times after the initial break up, she would turn the tables and blame me for hurting her, and questioning my loyalty to the relationship. It all built up resentment in me towards her, because, the state of the relationship was completely her doing. I wanted to give love, safety, and security, and later, after I was a shell of myself because of the broken heart, she claimed during one texting breakup/ discussion that she doesn't feel the safety and security and that she can't go through the uncertainty of having her significant other starting a new business, as she did with her ex. A week later, her story changed and now she's back in the relationship completely. She destroyed my ego very early in the relationship, and in small ways of her not realizing, kept on doing it. She continually broke my heart and crushed my ego, then acted as if I was the bad guy for distancing from her, wanting space, or even when I was downright depressed because of her hurt, which was so easy for her to forget. She often would ask I just forgive her, and expect I just do it on the spot and move on. She didn't ever allow me my own dignity and space to heel and gain perspective. But when she was unsure of the relationship or angry, you better believe I had to give her space. She showed me a great life with her and her children, drew me in and even coaxed me into saying I love her, but didn't return the words. She impaled me with the beautiful life I was so happy to jump into, and then often blamed me for being so heartbroken and depressed, often trying to minimize my level of hurt, and deny that it was as bad as I say or how dare I compare my hurt to anything she was dealing with in her own life. I entered a tornado of hurt with her, and disappointment. It's still incredibly hard to let go. I know there is someone better out there, and honestly, someone far better deserves me, because I know I'm one of the good ones. That new life just seems so far away.
I know, Robert. How far away it always seems when we're still in the midst of the "going through". Let her be herself, with what she was never capable of giving you, and allow yourself to be you. You are one of the "good ones" - oh how you are! You're your own beautiful person with so much to offer someone who can give to you, too. Shake all this off of you that you've allowed yourself to take on - it's never about you, it's about her, and where she's at and what she can and can't give you. Not you. Not what you didn't have or didn't do or were too much of or not enough of - just someone who wasn't on the same page as you. Go easy with yourself, be compassionate with where you are right now, this going through, this process so familiar to so many of us. You're not alone. Check out the comments on some of the previous posts and you'll find some other men going through something similar to you. One step at a time, it takes time to see things differently than the way we're so programmed to see "rejection". It's never about you.
Jane, I really connected with this article. My ex recently broke up with me (3 days ago, to be exact.) What hurts the most was that he felt the need to break up with me at my internship site. He sent carnations and a hand-written note saying "It's over...I'm sorry...Good bye....Please don't contact me." I was immediately crushed, and felt like he took my heart and shattered it on the ground. I took the flowers and the glass vase they were delivered in, and threw it in the trash right after I read the card. I didn't want to look at them, and I tore up the note, as well and threw it away. He was one of the only people I ever trusted and loved as much as I did. I even turned down a possible internship in Florida to be close to him, since we both live in Connecticut. Now, I'm starting to regret not calling that internship site back. I confided in a few close friends and family members about what happened. They've really helped me through what's happened so far, and I'm glad to have their support. I never saw this breakup coming. We had been so close for almost a year. We did a lot of fun things together, and I truly miss it. It's not easy being alone, but I also know that I'm not really alone.....I have friends and family who love me and will never abandon me. I guess that this person, let's call him D, wasn't "the one." I was with him for my final year of college, and he helped me through a lot of hard times during the time we were together. For that, I thank him. I also thank him for doing all of the nice things he did for me. I compared this breakup to a nightmare that I can't wake up from. It's still hard, but I know I'll get past it with time. Any further advice?
I'm so glad this resonated with you, Carly. You will get past this in time; it's great you've got so much support! Focus on you, on loving yourself, on remembering that this is a reality check that is a gift - and not a rejection of you. Don't fight the feelings that come up for you, accept them as part of you living, loving, and believing in love. There's so much more still to come, with someone who's truly right for you.
Thank you for responding, Jane! It's been almost a week since the awful breakup, but I still get through each day. I cry every day, but I'm still able to do the things that need to get done. Do you think that with some time, he would contact me again? I know that he must be thinking about me & missing me, like I am with him. We were so close, I couldn't imagine him just blocking me out of his mind. I still have trouble putting 2 and 2 together when I try to find the reason as to why he ended it the way that he did. Was he too scared to see me in person? All I know is that I miss him dearly, and I hope he feels the same, and that I hear from him again one day.
Jane, I love your blog. How you think resonates with what I want for me. I like your words. They remind of what I tell myself and reading someone else say the same things is incredubly validating and supportive.
I just posted a comment a few days ago about moving on because he wants to date someone else and I don't. I was clear about what I wanted and was ready to choose me over the opportunity with him. Before I had a chance to tell him, he said that he realized it wasn't fair to ask me to share; that I had been clear about what I want but that he can't give that to me right now. He would end up hurting me and hating himself, regardless of his intentions.
I hated that it felt like he took my power to choose away but I try to remember that I already chose. I set my boundaries. He knew. And he needed to say the words before I did. I can maybe give him that because when he did, I sighed a heavy breath of relief. It was over. The weight of it was gone: The insecurity, the indecision, the crazy-making. But I am sad and I grieve the future potential---as you say--all the things we won't get to do and be.
I allow myself to reminisce because I think it wll help grieve and move on but I find myself doubting what I felt. I wonder if he really cared about me--the way he said he did, the way it felt like he did. I know we're not on the same page and I know I won't compromise my boundaries (progress!) but I don't want to move on by demonizing him or the tme we had.
the time we had together was nice and it felt good. It showed me what I wanted and the kind of relationship I'd want to have with someone who treats me well, who accepts my anxieties and fears, who is emotionally mature and communicative, and who doesn't make me feel crazy. It allowed me to feel safe to care about someone, to be vulnerable, and to be communicative myself. I learned that I have to be honest with myself. I can only be the person I want to be and act like I am in the kind of relationship I want to have, hoping that he wants all that but knowing he might not.
How do I process all the contradictions? Do I remember that he accepted my vulnerabilities, my anxiety and fears? Or recognize that in the end, he couldn't give me what I want because these things probably wore on him, except that seeing things that way, without actually knowing it as truth, risks my not being as real with the next person?
How do I move on without tarnishing the memory, without putting up walls again? How do I honor what he taught me about myself, what I've learned, and how I've grown without forgetting that there was still some drama and crazy-making? How do I accept that he did care about me but not enough? How do I remember that he can't give me what I want without having to qualify it with 'right now?' How do I let go of the hope that he might come back around because he really did "think I was all that?"
How do I remember that what it was like to feel safe to be honest and real but also remember that in the end, it wasn't what I want--it wasn't safe--and that the sheer length of this comment is indicative of why it needed to end?
I'm so glad this is all resonating with you, Piper. You'll find my answer to your previous comment on that article. But for this one, you go on by remembering that he's not a bad person, nor are you too much or not enough of anything else that you might blame yourself for contributing to this relationship's end. It's never about all the reasons we can come up with or the drama or the fantasy that we can hold onto believing it was something greater than what it was. Remember the happy memories that you want to remember, think of the things you learned and how you grew and what you enjoyed and the good things that you want to hold onto. There are usually always happy times in all our relationships, no matter how they end up.
But don't stay there.
Remember the reality of what was, of what is. If it's didn't work out, there's always a reason, and it's so much simpler a reason than we make it. It's always about true compatibility, about two people being on the same page and wanting the same level of commitment as the other with each other, and being willing to do whatever it takes to make that happen. That's what matters, Piper. And if he was there, you would have know. If he gets there, you'll still know.
It's not about you, Piper. Don't take any of his actions or what happened personally. It's not personal no matter how much we want to believe it was. It's not. It's in the acceptance of the reality of what is that will get you through this to the other side. When you fight it or want it to be different, it only hurts you and keeps you stuck. You did the best of what you knew, and so did he.
Free both of you by freeing yourself. You're getting all this, even if you're still experiencing the very human part of moving on the only way I've ever moved on - two steps forward, one step back, with so many questions, doubts and second-guessing myself along the way. Focus on that acceptance of reality each of those steps along the way, and be so proud of how far you've come, Piper, because even just realizing that "the sheer length of this comment is indicative of why it needed to end" says that you're seeing this for yourself. You're so right, true love really is never complicated. It just supports our stories - and our deeply ingrained belief systems - when we make it this way. "You are all that" regardless of whether he figures that out or not. And someone who's truly right for you will know that without a doubt!
Hi, Jane
My name is Megan and me and my x broke up almost a year ago now and i still cry every day. After reading your article I have now come to the reilization that I havent allowed myself time to grieve because over the past year we have stayed in contact and still spent time with each oher on a regular basis including sex. He broke up with me because he said that he watned more "expierience" in life and i understood so we decided to stay friends. I never truely understood how hard this really was and I feel like I've been "waiting" for him becuase i truely felt like he was my soulemate and that he was the one I would wait forever. We've had more arguments in the past year than we did in the two years that we were actually together. He has called me every name in the book and put me lower than I ever though possible, but just when I've had enough he comes back to me and pretends like everything is okay. I feel like its an addiction becasue I cant say NO. 🙁 it saddens me that I am in love with him and he tells me that he is not in love with me anymore but he still comes around ...... I dont know how to break this habbit. I know its not healthy - me wanted him to come home, when in reality he probly never will and I am only dening the enevitable and stopping myself from being happy again.I have two young children who also talk about him all the time and miss him. I need to be strong for them but it is just so hard We grew up together and we have so many good memories I cant stop thinking about what if and maybe. I truely love this man but he is not ready to be the man that I need him to be .... I have so many things good going for me. I know I deserve to be loved the way I can love someone but I dont want to be hurt like this ever again. I am a smart woman, why cant I let go of this childish little boy! I asked him if he thought we would ever be together again and he said when hes ready, am i supposed to wait? ahhhhhhhh...... all i want to do is cry and ive been crying since last april ...... PLEASE HELP!!!
Jane, this is so inspiring.
I truly love all your posts. Sometimes I feel you write them just for me.
Thank you.
When I met my ex back in October ...
He was at his lowest...
I was like an Angel that came into his life in the precise moment that he needed me...
I shared his lonely moments, fluffed his ego, made him feel good, showed him, his self worth by giving him the confidence to stand.
He repaid me, by doing everything to destroy my confidence, messing about and treating me like utter disgust for the past month.
Laughing at me to his friends.
Totally disrespecting me in ways I never EVER imagined he could/would do to me.
Then all of a sudden, HE decided he did NOT want me anymore!
I'm not going to lie, it hurt like hell...
After, 5 long days & nights crying over the "Grinch" like a big girl, having countless sleepless nights
I finally accepted that decision.
The way I see it is this...
I can’t control someone else’s decision, so i will focus on what i can control: my thoughts, my attitude, and my reaction.
I'm no longer going to spend time with the "wrong person"– Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you. If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you. I shouldn’t have to fight for a spot. And I will NOT, ever insist myself to someone who continuously overlooks my worth.
Even though I never felt guilty about the end of our relationship, I am certain I did everything I could to save it and I'm not going to continue to torture myself.
I will not let HIM dictate my happiness. In reality, I'm not the one that needs to get upset over his loss. Because even though he is the one that dumped me...He will be the one in pain...because all I lost was someone who did NOT love me, and HE lost someone who DID love him...
Which, isn't that easy to find.
I hope he enjoy's his life ...
Because I, WILL be enjoying mine. 🙂
With love, Sophie x
Thank you for your beautiful, sweet words, Sophie - and for sharing your journey, your story. Sometimes it's when we take on the role of an angel in someone's life for the purest of reasons that we find ourselves hurting far deeper than if we had remained very human. But that's how much we love and care and feel and for you to have those qualities is such a beautiful thing, Sophie, just unfortunately the reality of seeing that wasted on someone who wasn't really right for you is one of the harshest realities to have to face. And I'm so sorry this was your reality. But you have found such a strength in yourself in discovering the key to getting through this; acceptance of what is.
The way you see it is exactly the way it is. You have come through this with such a beautiful strength and resolve here, Sophie, and what you're talking about here, this kind of determination to not repeat the past and find your own life again and do things differently with you and your beautiful self as the focus, is exactly what will make your light shine so bright and make a certain type of real confidence to come through in a way that a man who is truly right for you and sees your qualities as everything he has been looking for, cannot help but find you! You deserve nothing less than this, my beautiful friend. 🙂
Sophie, can I just say how much your story has helped me come to terms with my experience as it was just like reading what I faced with my ex. I entered his life when he was pretty low, his wife had gone off with another man, he had lost his job, financially he was in trouble and there was more going on which I only found out after I had already fallen for the guy & was like his angel during that time for him giving him unconditional support & care, he told me how I was his best friend and was unearthly and that I should trust him as he would never hurt such a sensitive and loving light person. Well I can honestly say I wasn't perfect and did too blame myself at times for the break up as I had a lot of trust issues due to events from my past so I guess I acted a little insecure but they guy just stopped including me as much, didn't speak about our future anymore, didn't seem to miss me at all in his life until I eventually started to lose confidence in myself & developed some unhealthy coping strategies to deal with my broken heart & loneliness which left me feeling depressed, unlovable & a shadow of my former vibrant self until he turned around an told me that his feelings had changed for me.
Yes I get I was not perfect & was obviously acting a little broken as 5 months into the relationship he got a great new job which I was pleased for him about but I lost a lot of my work (I was self employed) and a few things started to go wrong for me & I was struggling. What I really needed was for him to just love me like he did once and tell me he would be there for me no matter what but instead he just withdrew & had me mentally exhausted as I tried to figure out what was going on. When we broke up and I had to meet him to collect my things he in fact admitted that his feelings had changed a while back as he just wanted to be happy. It broke me. He got over it all very quickly whilst I struggled for months heart broken and unconfident.
Four months down the line I can honestly say today as I saw in 2015 with my friends that I am glad it ended for the same reason you specify: he lost someone who deeply loved him during his dark times and his brighter ones, he turned his back on true love & what did I lose, someone who did not love me. It just put it all into perspective reading that and I am now starting to get that happy feeling back into my heart which was there before I met him. I am so proud of myself,
for getting my strength back and next time I will be strong, vibrant and healed from my past so I attract someone the same towards me and not another broken person as I would never ever do that to myself again.
Much love to you Sophie and I hope you meet yr beautiful angel as its nothing less than what you deserve!
Also thank you Jane for all yr inspiration and help 🙂
Thank you, Jayne. And you will be exactly these things because these are already the beautiful qualities within you! 🙂
"... and what did I lose, someone who did not love me." - Wow, Jayne. That said it all.
"because all I lost was someone who did NOT love me, and HE lost someone who DID love him..."
BEST INSPIRATION QUOTE EVER!!
I love this. But I find it so difficult to love again
Take your time, Joy; and know that when the time is right for you and for that special someone who won't let you down like you've been let down in the past, you will know, and you will be ready to open up your heart again and love again. Each painful experience brings us closer to the heart of ourselves and the heart of someone who's been looking for us as much as we've been looking for him.
Thank you Jane...
I totally agree...allow yourself to heal...allow time for reflection...and yes you will meet someone that has been waiting the same way..it is the silver lining around this dark cloud over your heart..do not stop loving and do not let your heart harden...love will come around when you least expect it..blessings..
Exactly, Juan. I'm so glad this message is resonating with you!
My mind understands all of the supportive words, but my heart is pounding a mile an hour. It has been two weeks, and I feel I don't have a closure. If I was so perfect and wonderful as he said, why did he leave? I keep reading articles such as this one to make myself feel as though I am a part of a community. Community of heartbroken people. This was my first love and they always say it is hard getting over the first. I just so desperately need words of encouragement that it will get better... He stole three years of my life and I feel so cheated. I can't shake the thought that he is happy and I am so miserable. I don't know what I need? Compassion? Understanding? If I talk about it seems to help, even if it's with people who don't know me.
Compassion for you, Sam. Understanding for you. The kind that can only come from you. Without that, we miss the greatest message here. That it's not really ever about him as much as it's about us. About everything we think we should have seen, about everything we think we should have done differently, about everything we did wrong. Forgive yourself, be so gentle with your broken heart as you allow yourself to feel everything that comes up for you. You did the best you could with what you knew. Period. This is how we love. This is how we grown. This is how we know more of what to look for and to do differently next time. But for now, you are free.