I heard you crying yourself to sleep last night, you still haven't heard from him, but you're sure he’ll come around.
Is he worth it?
I heard you talking on the phone yesterday, saying he didn't come home last night, but you tell yourself he probably just had to work late again and stayed downtown with a friend.
Is he worth it?
I heard you turning down an invitation to a party tomorrow night, because he's working late again and you don't want to go alone, again. But you tell yourself it's only temporary, even though it never seems to end.
Is he worth it?
I saw your bedroom light on late last night; you can't sleep because he's supposed to be calling after he gets back from yet another night out with the guys. But he's done this so many times before, and you keep forgiving him.
Is he worth it?
I saw those tears begin to fall when you saw that couple running to meet each other at the airport. But he always tells you not to bother to come.
Is he worth it?
I heard your voice shake when you made yet another excuse for him while telling your friend that you still believe he'll change.
Is he worth it?
I see you, beautiful, looking into the darkness, wondering where he is and whatever happened to the two of you. Refusing to give up on the dream of him and you, yet wondering why you're the only one who seems to care.
Going through the emotional rollercoaster of the highs and lows of being in a relationship with someone like him.
You can't explain it; you love him so, no matter how he treats you, but you also know, deep down inside, that something isn't right. In your heart of hearts you know you deserve better than this, you know there's more to life than living like this, but he's got so much potential, so much of what you want, if only he would grow up.
If only he would realize how much he needs you. If only he would open his eyes to see all that you are and all that you have to offer him.
You've tried imagining life without him, you've tried to picture going it alone, again, you've tried to picture yourself finding that strength within to live the life you've dreamed of, but have found yourself stuffing into the background.
You're going to miss him too much, you say; it hurts too much to let him go. You need him. He's everything you've looking for in someone, if only he would commit to you. You're scared to let him go; he might be ready for that commitment just when you leave. You're scared to be without him. And scared to be with him, throwing your life away like this.
My question to you, my dear, beautiful friend, is this:
Is he worth it? Is he really worth it?
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